I have no intention of making decisions for her. If this was not Haji, it would be far more straight forward.
If it was a lover, then they can move on if she doesn't come back. She would be able to decide while only considering what is best for her, because they don't require her. Haji does not have that.
Even in rejecting hope, she would likely feel guilt, like 'how dare she choose what's easier for her, what if he is alive, how could she be so selfish?' And her other dark thoughts.
There is no answer where there isn't a lot of pain. The not telling, have Haji is the least amount of pain, even if it might not be the 'right' choice, but getting there without something giving first is very risky.
Made more complicated in that she has expressed not wanting to remember things, she has asked I not tell her what is in the research journal of that man, so any hope her reaction is going to be some level of reasonable if I tell her at any point without Haji is going to be...
Well, frankly, I would probably ask Wukong to be there both to be emotional support because at least he does get most of this sort of thing and because he can pin her down so she doesn't do something incredibly stupid.
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I trust Saya.
And she trusts me.
I have no intention of making decisions for her. If this was not Haji, it would be far more straight forward.
If it was a lover, then they can move on if she doesn't come back. She would be able to decide while only considering what is best for her, because they don't require her. Haji does not have that.
Even in rejecting hope, she would likely feel guilt, like 'how dare she choose what's easier for her, what if he is alive, how could she be so selfish?' And her other dark thoughts.
There is no answer where there isn't a lot of pain. The not telling, have Haji is the least amount of pain, even if it might not be the 'right' choice, but getting there without something giving first is very risky.
Made more complicated in that she has expressed not wanting to remember things, she has asked I not tell her what is in the research journal of that man, so any hope her reaction is going to be some level of reasonable if I tell her at any point without Haji is going to be...
Well, frankly, I would probably ask Wukong to be there both to be emotional support because at least he does get most of this sort of thing and because he can pin her down so she doesn't do something incredibly stupid.